Bible says, the creator of man says, it is not good for the man to be alone. But, how did I feel, being alone is very good? The subject hitted in my mind, when I was having an ice tea at a huge shopping mall. I was sitting in a point, where I can see most of the rolling steps in that mall. I was watching everything and noticed, most of them are coming by couples, either with their girl friends or boy friends, otherwise rushing to buy something and going off. I might be the only person, went there to strand in the mall. For a moment, I thought about my friends, who are in another part of the world. But now I can't do anything.

Most of my friends always tells, "you are always happy, you don't have any problem." What they are meaning by happy. Just keeping the smile always in the face? No. All are always see the outerside of our face. Nobody, only true friends', see the inner side, the heart. In teanagers or those who doesn't have a girl-friend will always be happy. That is very true. But in otherside, those who don't have girl friend, will always be worry. Because all others have one, I don't. But in most cases, problems are their girl friends only. They may not be able to satisfy their parents,but they will run behind their girl friends to keep it always aside. But never realizes, it is only for the time period.

Which one is good? Being lonely or being with two? Obviously the second one. Because sharing a thing to another is very good behaviour. If it is with your loved ones. If you are alone, where you will share? Now-a-days, you must have the answer for this. Blog sites. Most of the lonely persons' mind is blogging out here. But, if it is a irresponsible thing, then? In Bible also, Jesus sent His disciples two by two. Why the need of two? Many reasons. If one has any problem, you will always have a helping hand nearby from your counterpart. If you are alone, you may not fulfill your journey. But, in the electronic world, being lonely would be somewhat better. Because, as I see, most of the girl-friend has only one aim. Squeezing their boy friend as much as possible. These poor fellows always get into trouble with this. As the study says, the account balance of a bachelor having a girl-friend is falling faster than the bachelor without girl friend. On the other side, the girl's account will always be steady. In this kind of scenario, being lonely is very good. But, even if you are alone, your inner mind will always be tempted for a shore, where you can relax.

Autumn. Ah, the word gives us a very good and relaxes feelings, right? Here, my "autumn" also gives me the same feeling. But, when the tears I found from her heart, keeps me think about her.

We met through telephone almost 3 years back. She wanted to be in touch with me, due to the nature of my work. That conversation leads to the friendly time pass conversations. That was her nature. She is very easy person to be mingled with anybody. But, I am so choosy always. I was analyzing her from the top to bottom. Since, she is very very simple girl, the first day itself, my survey about her finished. She is 4 years elder than me, but there is no boundaries in our friendship. There was time limit for our conversation, very first time. Later it turned a situation like; we should have to hear each other at least one time in a day. The feelings grown up like, she got a shoulder to cry. We two have similarities in many things. But she is far better than me. Because of this, I don’t want to keenly check her. I could remotely identify what she feels now. I knew her inner feelings; I knew her unrevealed feelings and sorrows. Once, when I told her about all those, she was amazingly asked me "how come you knew it? I even hadn’t talked about all these with my sister too". That was our relation. A well bonded heart relation.

World’s most difficult word to express is "Love". Nobody can directly say, "I love you". It is not easy as writing. But to her, I said while looking into her eyes. But that love doesn’t mean, what others meant. Before she said to me, I knew, she got many lover proposals and marriage proposals from here college mates and colleagues. Still one guy is behind her, with the proposal and he is the same age of her younger sister. A lady like her is very difficult to find today’s world. She is so loyal to everything. She never knows the word "hate" and never complained about anything. She only knows "love and care". If you talk to her once, you may fall in love with her. That is her nature. She is the eldest daughter in her family. She discusses all the matter with her mother and her sister. Never said lies; only once. Our relation is growing much better than earlier. There is no secret between us. When she wanted to take rest on my shoulder, she comes to me immediately. Her parents knew me and they have a good impression about me. When we met very first time, that was unforgettable, she was so excited. I can’t express that through words. But our meeting was only for few minutes. But my presence given her relaxation. I knew she loves me. But she fears to express it, like her nature. I knew it very well and asked her. But, in that sensitive matter, she always bravely behaves. I always say, if you would have the same age of mine, I would have married you. She laughs, to hide her feelings. But I know what that was.

In her career life, many stumbling blocks came up. I always stand beside her to help. She and her family admit that. I see some difficulties in her future life. Like her parents, I always worried about her, because I love her that much. The suppression of her feelings made her a person, who can withstand any situations. But that nature closed her dreaming about, what other ladies does in this age. But "we" all are bit worried, but working for her. I say, you always have my shoulder. At the time of my proposals, when my parents told me to find a girl for myself, the first question they aimed to her. The same question was asked by her parents too. But what others saw was not in our life. We bonded with pure friendship, but much more than a friend. The tears comes out from her eyes, never seen anybody, but I saw it and rectified it. Still anytime it may overflow. My prayers are always filled with her. Oh God, give some mercy to her.

Three months back, when Fidel Castro made the statement, " atleast we had well educated prostitutes in the country", I just think about it. As a leader of the country, he made the statement loudly, how many leaders can say this? All are trying to hide the list of crime in their countries, but he doesn't have anything, but said the truth. Everywhere in the world, you can see prostitutes and prostitution. In general considerations, prostitutions are mostly happening in poor countries. Is it true? No. If yes, then they are doing it for their progress of life or to feed their childrens at least a time. But in rich countries, it is doing only for their satisfaction or time pass. Moreover, the prostitutes in the rich countries are adopted from the poor countries, may be for the above stated reasons.

At present, the western culture is more influencing the indian teenagers and they are justifying about this to keep their status in the society to high level. In India, major cities bears prostitutes and the public look them as they are doing guilty. But they may or may not be working for themselves or others. The real fact behind this is a dangerous story. Once any girl get caught into this, then it is very difficult to come out of this. Even if they escaped, the racket/gang numbers trying to harrass her or kill her for not to reveal the gang's way of work. Mostly they targets girls from poor family and attracts them by offering chances in films and other hi-fi programs to get fame soon. Or they place agents to capture them without hesitation.

Attraction to money and the thought of how to make money easily and fastly, leads the people into all these dirty ways. When we leaves primary considerations about money, we can make a better life and better country. Remember money is nothing in life.

I met her in 2003 thru internet community. It was a question about her upcoming
exam and my reply to her, started our relationship. I told her to inform me about the exam.
She passed it with a good percentage and become a certified professional like me. She is a
brilliant girl, let me call her as Neelima, and has an intention to acheive her goals. Days
passed and our communication gone out the community and started telephonic. She just
finished B.E in Computer, with high grade and completed this valuable certification and was
desperately trying for a job in the networking feild. Since I am related to that field, our
relationship grown day by day. That time, I didn't have cell phone and she used to call on
my room-mate's cell. Whenever she attended an interview, that night we discussed about the
interview thru phone. Her consulting, clearing the doubt and the leaning point was me.
since she is a brilliant girl, she got selected almost all places, but was unsatisfied with
each places, because her focus was not matching with the requirement. Finally joined a call
center, which I advised her not to, but was showing her standalone decision. It lasts only
3 months.

Oneday, on our usual talk, I asked her, "I heard, delhi girls are very tricky. Is
it right?". This made her angry and disconnected the line. After a few days, I tried to
cal her, she is not picking up any of my numbers. All my attempts she denied. But God
given me a way to continue the relation. Everyday, I was praying for her. It is a hurting
thing to me, a person leaving from me, without informing anything. Through my other
connections and they explained her about the fact, she again started to talk to me as usual,
but puts a restriction/keeps me behind the limit. I thanks to all of them, who tried to
keep it as normal. Our relation was growing. Whenever she needs a decision, she comes to
me. I tried to help her at my best. Finally she decided to join to the main frame course.
Even if, she is not interested in the s/w feild, she made up her mind to go that feild for
better future. I enquired about it and advised from here, far from her. Even though, we
talks regularly, after 3 years only we met each other. I even doesn't have her photo, but
she saw my picture on internet.

The new life, new friends, new culture are changed her a lot. I was asking about
her marriage, since she is the eldest daughter in her family. She said, "my company needs
me for a long time, not thinking about a marriage now". That was a clever-matured answer.
I was very happy about her and her happiness was reflecting each of her words. I was
thankful to God, for her happiness. After we met, for very first time, she given me another
happy news. She got selected to go abroad for a month or long, for her project. That makes
her as well as me, much happier. I was proud about my friend. She was getting busy and
busiest day by day and I could get in touch with her, before leaving to abroad. Her changes
was reflecting from her words.

I was sure about her, because she is a kind of girl, can mingle easily with anybody.
She did well at abroad too. We used to contact thru internet chatting and sent me her
photos at different locations and talked aloat about her new trips, new site seeing and
activities at her working place. She was changing more and more. The conversations really
going like a flirting level. Her passion was changing in such a way that, she need whatever
she wants and she won most of the time. Or can say, I failed, because, I don't want to
loose her again. She was talking like a small child, and was screaming for the things, she
liked. She then starts talking about a guy, who is proposing to her for the marriage and
showed his photo. She was in a run to acheive her all goals and wanted to grab everything
she liked. Her mood changed immediately and she wanted to be settled down and the husband
should be a good guy and should be down to earth. I told her then your life won't be happy.
Because I knew her well. She again prompt me, and try to find my mind. Told me, she met a
foreigner and he invited her for dinner and is going. I told her, good, you got a new
company. She grasped somany things from there and was imitating their culture. That made
her in trouble too.

Returning to India was a happiness to me too. Her new knowledge and the new life
style I understood well. She was in such a spirit that, she can go anywhere with anybody.
After a month of her return, she called me. I was busy due to the death of one of our
employee in the bomb blast. Our talks were gone beyond limits, arguements was going on, but
I really enjoyed that and hopefully she too. After a month of that, I called her. She was
sleeping and I disturbed her. She was tired after a trip at Dehradun and was ready to go
another trip to Bihar with her PM. I was grasping from her words to say something. I
wanted to advise her, but I knew, she may not listen me. She was in the verge of out of
control, but she never knew that. I told her, we have a culture, never leave that.
Whatever your parents tells, obey them first. They always find the good for us, they never
tell bad things to us. We are now upto this stage is because of our parents, not our
dignity. She was accepting it. But, her acceptance, I couldn't believe it as the complete
one. But, I don't want to leave her in that stage. Still she has a chance to comeback, if
she realized my words and found her guilty. She was on the verge of crying, I felt. But
she never expressed that. She said "I am a bad girl. Shib, let me think silently. You are
the right one, you are the good friend". I said, " I am taking a full power to scold you,
as you are my friend. If I did a mistake, pls forgive me". She replied, "You are good
friend. Good friend can only scold, find the goods and bads of us. You did a good job". I
hopes she will come back as normal, like me or ourselves.