You may be wondering about to see this title. It is a new kind of life, now-a-days people are leading. Recently, I read an article about the new city life. The level of on-time marriage is inversly proportional to the late marriage. People are more interested to get date than get into a relation like marriage. Here comes the title, clearly.

Loneliness

It is exactly defined as, those who doesn't have any kind of relation, but have some hi-bye relation. The loneliness for a human is the feeling coming from inside. In older days, there is something to mean that the word itself. It can be happened anybody by the act of God. It may be by loosing his / her parents, and have no friends and bad relatives or vice versa. Or it may be living in a different place for any other purpose for a time period and have no communication with anybody.

How come it be happy?

The life is changing and growing fast with the new gadgets ( I can call it as / say that). The people in india (especially those who are in cities) are blindly focusing / following to the west. But those in west are silently coming to taste the original indian culture. India is becoming a global dump yard and testing center.

Let's have a look on to new indian life. When a child born, parents don't have time to take care. He / she is becoming a spoon feeding baby. As he grows, he mingles with the outsides, but his parents feed him to make money, minimum of 5 numbers earning, when he becomes a grown up. He / she is completely surrounding with techy gadgets to play instead of normal toys. So? He/She becomes lonely, but thanks to be his parents for providing high efficient gadgets.

Here comes, the way of happiness. The internet. It is a sea with varieties. If you want happiness of any kind, it can provide. To date, have romance, fun chat, everything is possible by that. This is whayt "Happy lonely life".

The other part of this is highly wierd. The proffessionals are taking strategic decisions on their life. They are marrying on time (to stop public's mouth) and decide to date for life time (with anybody), instead of having kids and taking care of them. The reason they are saying is, the expense to take care a child is very high. So, they decided to make money for their child, then give birth (or make) to a child. But God knows, who will remain for taking care that child.

"Search your heart, search your soul. When you find me there, you will..............."

That is what I did, searched my heart. For what, is my heart beating? Rolled back to my path, which I travelled, and it is right from the beginning. I felt somany times, I wanted to be a soul-mate of somebody. But who is the right person? I couldn't find anybody. Now I have a doubt, whether I found somebody or it is just a break-time on the journey.

As I was something differ from others, I tried to keep my personality as its, and still. In school-days, some teachers pointed me as an example of good student. But wasn't me a bad student? Yes, I am. I could advise others on the right track; I kept my thoughts are closed ones and didn't try to reveal with anybody. I am not an open-hearted man.

The first pledge and still I could keep as it is, is the pledge, which I took in front of God. That is, "I will never try/touch the alcohol and smoking." When I was only 11, I took this pledge and could keep the same, even when my father prompted me a lot to try. If I said something, I will do it. I am always truth to my words.

I loved everybody blindly. I hadn't searched any good or bad on them. I tried to deliver my best to them. But, they simply utilized me, which I wasn't understood.

Lots of girls/ladies touched my life. But they haven't touched my heart/soul. When I liked somebody, they would be already engaged. I think, that is happening only because, I am waiting to understand them and finding them are a good match.

One girl, who touched my heart, is still beside me. That was the day, when I came to know, how much I am loving her. But I could see her as my friend and she is my "true-friend". I realized the exact meaning of friendship from her. Soon after, one more came. But I don't know, how long that would be?.........

Finally, I got "you". The similarities with you and me are so matching. But some obstacles still there. I don't know, whether you are loving me or not. But one thing I know, I love you as ..................... (left it for you to fill).

The love is always starting from heart. But most of the case, the first love is inspiring by friends' and community. Now, it is common and they have only one look on a girl and boy, who are living together or travelling together. If both have good views, those who are watching them will change the situations. Because, they are starting to imagine and that is spreading much faster like gas on atmosphere. For example, if you are using a body spray, once you press the button to spray; it produce the gas an will fill the fragrance in the air. Here button is their tounge. When they released the tounge, with words, the news is spreading and all will capturing the "fragrance".

I don't like to reveal, what was cause in my case and what is my strong feel about you. Sometime, one of my friend, who is knowing us ( much better than you) asks, is there anything in between you and me? I replies a smile or a big laugh.

She is my good friend. Everybody was looking keen to us and was waiting anything will happen. But I know, what happened and will go to happen. We take care about ourselves and met secretely.

I haven't belief any kind of future predictions by stars or something else. Recently, I read about me. I will be fall in love with someone, unexpectedly and is hard to believe about that person, who is loving me. I know clearly what will be going to happen in between you and me. What I felt will happen finally. Untill then, let me keep that secret, my dear, dearest.